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I finally have a better idea what to put on an .

I'm very avidly into , enjoy and generally being . I love and . Also big into of all of the above.

I generally enjoy the aesthetics of casinos/gambling and especially jesters.

I'm still exploring who I am, but I'm and and that is leading me into realizing that my options should be more open.

Nothing is more important to me than my friends.

Psychonauts 2 in depth 

You have to know those insecurities and fears, you have to be able to have an argument with yourself and explain why that's not acceptable, or why you know that answer is wrong.

You don't just bury it down. Ignore it, push it away. That's such a terrible answer for a game that had up until that point had a lot of interesting and insightful metaphors for figuring out how to deal with trauma and move forward.

I just don't understand how everything else could be so good.

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Psychonauts 2 in depth 

The game even lingers on the moment, with that darkness being like "You can't get rid of me, I'm a part of them!" like... Yeah, that's 100% right. You can't get rid of it. You just can't keep bottling it up either.

You need to befriend it. To listen to it, to understand where that other side is coming from, confront it, speak to it about how you know what aspects of what it's saying is wrong. It's part of you, you have to know yourself.

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Psychonauts 2 in depth 

The game falls apart right at the end though where it's dealing with one of the main characters who has gone and done pretty unforgivable things by letting out the darkness that lives inside of us all and succumbing to the urges and just making everything worse for everyone.

The game's solution and answer is that... that darkness inside of us just needs to be stuffed down and never let out because letting it out is bad and wrong.

I hate this as a solution. This is wrong.

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Psychonauts 2 in depth 

One level also delves very straightforwardly into talking about Jungian archetypes, so much so that one of your abilities is to summon one of your archetypes. The archetype is also voiced by Gir's voice actor from Invader Zim... 'cause Raz's voice actor is also Zim. Cute little meta-nod, and it just fits super well.

The whole game is also about helping people unpack their traumas and put themselves back together so they can deal with their day to day. Which I also love.

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Psychonauts 2 in depth 

I want to love this game. There's an entire level about opening up your mind and being able to really sense and feel all the world around you. Every time you light up a rainbow bridge there's a quote that sounds like it could have been said during one of Alan Watts' talks. It even has very overt references to The Beatles' Yellow Submarine film and the music sounds like Grateful Dead for that level. It's so *my shit* that I thought they made that one level just for me.

I don't think I've ever been more elated to play a game and more let down by the ending than Psychonauts 2. Unbelievable.

Action Button's review of Cyberpunk 2077 might be one of my favorite things.

Twitch Link 

I have leveled up, now to stream for 24 hours because I wanna see if I can V:

twitch.tv/NinTheFolf

Thoughtful discussions on cryptocurrencies 

Like, don't get me wrong, again, the excessive energy consumption is a concern. Needlessly computing entire encryption cycles for small transactions is a concern.

But isn't the bigger concern that we need to be focusing on getting us to renewable energy first? Which means fighting the oil companies first.

There's probably more sensible approaches than trying to talk about the environmental impact of crypto anyway.

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Thoughtful discussions on cryptocurrencies 

I want to put first and foremost that I still do not agree with the cryptocurrency approach, I do not think that NFTs are good either.

However, I can't help but feel the sudden media push to show that cryptocurrencies are really bad due to the energy they consume is meant to get people fighting amongst themselves instead of the real problem.

Why get mad at the untouchable gas and oil companies when your neighbor is using more electricity than you?

mh (-) 

Tried negotiating, tried explaining my feelings, nothing's working, situation just keeps getting worse. I guess I'll just have to continue enduring the mental torture and hope I make it through until an escape presents itself.

Apologies in advance if I'm just perpetually depressed from here on out. I'm trying my best.

I hate that the tidus laugh is like posted as a joke thing like "haha look at how bad of a fake laugh this is, what was the voice actor thinking" because like. That's the context of the scene, it's supposed to be a fake laugh

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I don't mean to brag, but I have some of the best friends that a person could ask for. I love each and every one of them. I recommend getting to know them, 'cause they're awesome, and you owe it to yourself.

I am still active here, in case you are directed here due to recent art uploads!

Things I learned from therapy, part one: (chime in if you want to!):

1. The first 20 thoughts while you’re in crisis mode are a lie. Never believe them.

youtube.com/watch?v=KVcwxdCHSS I'd love to show you some of what I've been working on with some awesome people. It's a teaser, and no firm dates so we don't end up crunching, but I am very excited about the project and can't wait to share it.

Gender euphoria, maybe bragging (+) 

I don't think there's anything more validating than having a cis woman calling you her gurlfriend in the platonic sense. Feel like I've been bordering between smiling and wanting to cry happy tears ever since.

mh - 

Today's one of those days where it feels like basically nobody *actually* wants me around and only tolerates me. Very little evidence to the contrary.

I know, ultimately, I should trust that I am a cool person and that it's just fluctuations in moods, but, when things pile up all at once, it's hard to argue against my brain saying "see, you're gonna be alone"

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