I finally have a better idea what to put on an #introductions.
I generally enjoy the aesthetics of casinos/gambling and especially jesters.
Nothing is more important to me than my friends.
Feeling increasingly more isolated and alone, feels like even my close friend groups are drifting away and losing interest in me. Every time I try to suggest something to do, it just goes ignored. People I used to talk to daily are growing more and more distant and cold.
I don't know what I did, I don't know what I can do to make things right, I don't even know if it's real or in my own head.
also this is really cute and i just wanted to share it.
Toxic Masculinity rant
Also, despite explaining the direct inconsistencies, "I had Diet Coke when I was younger and it tastes completely different than Coke Zero" "Actually your palate is more sensitive to sweet and bitter flavors when younger." I get told that I have no need to doubt someone's "personal experience" in being able to tell the difference between the two, despite scientific and market research evidence to the contrary.
Scientific evidence is more important than anecdotal experience
Toxic Masculinity rant
I'm so sick of people being in 100% complete disbelief that Diet Coke and Coke Zero are the exact same product with a single ingredient difference (the preservative, which does nothing to the flavor).
The only reason they changed it is because MEN had the perception that Diet Coke was for women, so they did the bare minimum necessary to make men want to drink it: put it in a black can.
When told, people ADAMANTLY deny it. "It tastes completely different!" despite proof.
Ranting about gamer language
It's fun being excommunicated from a group because you criticized them for their flagrant usage of words like "simp" and "degenerate" for creating a hostile environment that makes white supremacists have an easier place to operate in unnoticed. Even if they're just using the words "ironically" and not serious in the slightest.
I need @sashahamilton 's official bird opinion on the dracula parrot: https://www.boredpanda.com/pesquets-dracula-parrots-birds-new-guinea/
And like... holy shit, that made my day today. That was so nice of them, and I'm going to keep it in my inventory 'cause they crafted it, it's got their name signed on it and just... dang.
It's amazing how sometimes the smallest things can make the biggest difference.
It was a really fun time, though, even though I was probably pushing myself to stay awake to be sure that I got the bird for them (even while sick, irl). We added each other as friends after getting them their bird and all was good.
CUT TO TODAY: I saw belatedly that they had waved to me, which is strange 'cause we're not on the same server, so I sent them a tell saying "Oh hey, didn't see you."
Turns out they had visited to bring me a gift, the HQ version of the Greatsword from the fight.
So a few days ago, I joined a party finder group in FFXIV that was looking to do Thordan (Extreme) for the bird, but only with one other tank. So I joined as my DRK. After a couple mishaps on learning the fight, we got it down and started working in tandem as a great team.
I ended up getting my bird super early, but I wasn't about to just ditch them, so we kept going, even though it ended up taking several hours to get the second bird.
mental health (---)
I just don't have a place to unwind now and that's just causing further stress. I don't know what to do about it, and right now just feel like curling up in bed and crying.
Of course this also comes at a point where my brain is trying to poke holes in all my relationships and lie to me, telling me that my friends don't really care or that they're getting tired of me. I'm arguing with it as much as possible by providing all the options I can that explain the behavior.
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